Three years ago

This afternoon I was re-tucking my Caleb back into bed (he'd been up a few times) in an effort to get him to nap.  As I was laying next to him stroking his hair in an effort to calm him to sleep, I was overcome with tears.  Sometimes this sweet boy can drive me batty with his never-ending getting into things, but I cannot imagine my life without him.  That dimpled smile was one of the first things I noticed about him when he was born and that same smile melts my heart these days in about two seconds. 

Three years ago, I had just learned that I was pregnant with Caleb.  It was exciting and terrifying at the same time.  Caleb was my first pregnancy after I had experienced the loss of a miscarriage.  Because of our previous loss, that positive pregnancy test brought up a bunch of conflicting emotions.  So much that I kept the news to myself for a full THREE days before I told my husband.  Keeping any news, especially BIG news like that, to myself for three minutes, let alone three days is amazing.  I'm pretty sure that the other 3 times I discovered I was pregnant, I waited all of 3 seconds before I shouted the news to my hubs. 

During those three days, we went to a reunion party.  We had three young children at the time (4 years, 4 years and 2 years), so several people were asking if we were done or if we might have more.  Little did they (or Jon) know!

It seems kinda silly now that I kept it to myself but at the time, my heart was tentative.  I didn't know what the outcome would be and knew I wasn't in control.  I had hoped it would be good.  I had no idea how blessed our family would be to have this 4th little boy added to it. 

When I see this boy, all I can think about is how good God is!  The verse that comes to mind is
1 Samuel 1:27 "I asked the LORD to give me this boy, and he has granted my request." (New Living Translation)